Monday, May 31, 2010

Nice Weekend....

Saturday we spent the morning at a Princess Birthday party for our little friend Kara, she is 4 years old! Her mom does a great kids party. She reads stories, dances and does games. She could so make money doing her parties!

For today, we grilled out with our neighbors and took care of this handsome little guy, while his mom and dad went to a memorial service to say good bye to a dear friend. It's been a very nice weekend....

I love this black and white photo of Elizabeth....

Friday, May 28, 2010

Where am I?

I am stuck in that place of loving life and knowing I am blessed and being afraid to take my eyes off of Nadene. A part of me feels like if I go back to "normal" that I am betraying the pain and loss of Joshi. That somehow I need to stay un-happy and sad with her. I know she would never say this and this definitely would make the Enemy a happy camper.

So where I am is deeply sad that my friend can't say her night time prayers with her baby boy anymore and so blessed and happy that I can. I am angry that cancer took a beautiful little boy from this world, but reminded by him in his last days that this is not all there is...thank you Jesus this is not all there is. I stand taller on Who God is these days and am humbled that the savior came and personally escorted a little boy, whom I held hands just a few short weeks ago, into the gates of Glory. (I think they held hands too)

And because God made us to not carry other peoples burdens to the point of despair, but just enough to walk these roads and make sure others are not alone, I am still sad, but not broken. I know all the cliche Christian things to say, but they don't take away the longing for Nadene. So just keep praying with us. Pray for this mom to find her new place in this world. That her heart connects to something in this life that not only brings Glory to the Father but brings her a little peace.

So where am I? I am still praying....

Monday, May 24, 2010

the face of an "angel"...don't let it fool you!

I told her not to touch the cookies...what was I thinking?

she's a lot of work, but SO MUCH FUN. I am so blessed.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

MY MOPS Family

I love my MOPS family. This week has been tough and they are the ones who have reached out to me and loved me. I wish everyone had a MOPS family....

Sunday, May 16, 2010


I was not able to go say goodbye to Joshi. So I look forward to traveling to see Nadene this summer and just sit with her and share memories of Joshi with her and hopefully show her she is not alone.
Friends of Joshi have been sharing photos and I love this one. The fire department came out to honor Joshua. I love the thought of all these big men being moved by a little man like Joshi.
My heart is not heavy for Joshi. Oh the sweetness of heaven. My heart is heavy for a mom who misses her baby. For my friend that I just want to hug. And for a pain that I have no control over.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


So I will cling to the memory of holding a hand that now has touched the face of Jesus. It's kind of strange to figure out where to put this grief. Has it really hit me yet? No.
I don't really have any words. Joshi is with Jesus.

Cancer sucks.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Strength beyond words

As we watch. Wait. Cry. Hope. We witness a strength beyond words. A little boy who has private, face to face conversations with Jesus and draws picture of His Guardian angels, has captured my heart.
With his family by his side. And his laughter echoing in their hearts. We wait. Cry and Hope with them.

I love you Joshua. Your little feet have left prints across my heart. What an honor to have held your hand. What an honor to know your mom.

Keep confounding those doctors little guy.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Sweet Joshua (Update from his mom)

Joshua's Back At TC Thompson Children's Hospital
Posted 30 minutes ago
Thanks to all those of you who are continuing to pray!

My dad is just fine. He has no signs of blockage in his heart. Praise the Lord and thank you for your prayers for my earthly father!

Your prayers for Joshua have been so uplifting! Joshua has been admitted to TC Thompson Children's Hospital. He's has fought a good fight and it seems as if that he's almost at the finish line now. He's been talking to Jesus about wanting to see Him. We've reassured Joshi that he will be in the best of care until we see him again soon. He's rested more in the last day and we will know more in the next 48 hours about how Joshua is going to do. We will keep you posted as we can. Thanks again for your showering of prayers. God love & bless you!

Christ...The Cure All,

Joshua Lee Freeman~JLF~Jesus Loves First
Matthew 18:5

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Tell Them Tuesday

Tell someone you love and appreciate today just how much you LOVE AND APPRECIATE them. Go over to Tell Them Tuesday right now and see who has blessed me lately!